I've been lost. That's right, lost. Somewhere in the last year through all the ups and downs, ins and outs, and doing the "grown up thing" I got lost.
Not physically, mind you. I'm physically right here going through the daily grind. But creatively and spiritually ( which I feel are connected by a life line anyway) I have been wandering aimlessly.
I'm not sure when I got lost. I don't think I slid off the cliff of creativity and soulfullness into a pit of confusion. I think perhaps I just strayed from the trail a few steps each day, allowing the path I intended to take to slip away from me inch by inch until I found myself wandering in a desert of the soul. Things dried up.
Then things I did manage to create were set aside. I didn't connect with the wonder that was presented to me by the universe. I just took what I was given and failed to give back. So the cycle stalled. There was nothing to refill what I was putting out... and it was entirely my fault. This I own... the responsibility for my current situation.
I know that all the creativity I have is given to me as a gift, and I am supposed to take that gift and give it away in the form of my art, be it sculpting, drawing, or writing. And when I stop fulfilling MY end of the bargain, then the whole process dissolves. The inspiration stops and I am left wandering aimlessly with an unfulfilled soul. Things begin to become overgrown in the forest of my mind and briers and brushes clog the path to clarity.
It's time I got back on the path. It's time to find my way back to the winding road that brings me to you each day with something to share.
It's time to pick up my soul, turn on the spiritual GPS and get back where I belong.
Tomorrow is a new start to an old journey. I hope you will join me.
Moonbeams & Blessings,
Jesi
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You said exactly how I felt for about two years however I feel I did fall off that ledge and it was my spirit that kept me alive through it all. I am just now hearing my Muse following my spiritual path with lots of enlightenment and faith. You are and were not alone.
ReplyDeleteDebbie, I do think you and I are old souls reuniting on a long journey. Things just mesh too well with us for it not to be so. Thank you for becoming part of my journey. I know it will be more fascinating because you are here. *Clinks glasses* Here's to a long strange trip! :)
DeleteYou said exactly how I felt for about two years however I feel I did fall off that ledge and it was my spirit that kept me alive through it all. I am just now hearing my Muse following my spiritual path with lots of enlightenment and faith. You are and were not alone.
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